I have been sitting in my car for 20 minutes trying to get myself to go in the gym. Trying to get myself to stop being a baby and be around other humans. I just can’t do it right now. I keep feeling like people are staring like they know what I did. He can’t even look at me the same. I have turned my car on and off 3 times cause I said I was finally going to go in but I talked myself out of it. What am I afraid of? Who am I afraid of? Honestly I think I’m afraid of myself. Like that I’ll make a fool out of myself. I wonder why I’m alone. I literally put shit in my head that hasn’t even happened yet. Why? Literally overthinking will always run my life.